OH come on Tiff! Get it together!!

SO i walked 4.5 miles today and still n my funky mood its almost like a depression type of funk. It didnt help when my husband says "hey honey i see c ur really committed but u gotta love it cause its helping u. But i told him i dont have to love it and right now i dont even like it but it doesnt matter cause im doing it anyway. So then i go to weigh in and find i didnt loose anything or gain anything i guess its good cause i didnt gain so i was starvin and stopped at jack in the box for some breakfast and let me tell u it will be the last time i buy fast food u can use ur imagination and i will spare u the really groce details. This week in summary really sucked bad nutrition not enough water and not enough cardio. Blah blah blah:-(

In a Funk ;(

SO since yesterday i've been in a funk but i guess i just didnt realze it till this morning on my way to the track left alone with my thoughts. Funny hoe the devil can play u against yourself when u least expect it. Anyway lucky for me my walking buddy was there faithful with her wisdom as usual. Just dont feel like ive done much this week. I know i know you're thinking three miles a day thats great so what u had a bad nutrition day who cares. Well the truth is that yeah three miles a day is great and a bad eating day isnt really that as long as i dont let it continue but on the inside no one knows how i feel the guilt that comes along with all that food i shouldnt have had and the guilt of not feeling motivated. But u c when u know what God has done for me then u would feel bad too. U c cause when dont do evrything in ur power to keep yourself healthy it weighs on u.

but on a plus note I went to a job interview today in a dress I bought a month ago that was a lil too tight and didn't look that great. In the shower today I was checking stuff out (TMI) and I didn't see any change and this is week 3 but my husband says he sees changes all over my body and of course those changes have to be where I can't see them. but it must be true cause i can wear the dress and it's beautiful. in fact I was so happy about being able to wear it I've worn it all day even though I should've changed it but it is so comfortable.

so lazy!!

Ok so monday i did six miles yesterday i only did three and i had a horrible eating habits. First of all i made lasagna my first mistake and i didnt stop myself at a small piece but to make matters worse i ate canned biscuits dont bother to ask how many i ate just know that one biscuit is 200 cals n i really messed it up. On a plus my blood sugar was 127 fot the second day in a row without diabetic meds. Going back to the track this afternoon to attempt six miles again.

sometimes you must feel pain to know your alive.

so I did 6 miles this pm with Cindie, I jogged the straights of mile 2, 3 & 5 with my buddy right beside me. I got a little brave a few times and finished off the straight with a "high speed" sprint. i've decided i've got to start some strength exercises in the morning and make it consistant. my buddy did 11 miles total today she's rockin it out! when I grow up I wanna be just like her. LOL! eating habits at home have been good, it's just at work. There's nothing I need in the kitchen at work anyway, so i'm gonna challenge myself to stay as far away from the kitchen unless a patient needs something. going back to the track in the morning gonna make it 7 miles this time.

p.s. don't bother to tell me not to over do it, i'm fat not disabled!! I will be ok. what doesn't kill me can only make me stronger.

OOOOOO WOW!

started out with a really crappy day, worked last night on only 5 hours sleep, diet mistake number 1. then if that wasn't bad enough I hate two single servings of bbq chips at a whopping 240 cals for bag, yes, folks add it up 480 cals of nothing running through my body but I didn't drink any coffee but at this point i might as well have LOL! so to make matters worse i didn't go to the track this morning cause i got out of work late, my poor husband and my walking buddy both waiting for me at the track and I couldn't get there. I feel really bad about that, especially cause my husband took the bus home and we arrived at the same time at home. so moving week is coming soon and i must admit i am lil' anxious. hey a lady has been reading my blog all the way from pittsburg, my myspace blog and she said I was an inspiration to her, imagine that, me an inspiration cool. anyway, gotta go get in those 6 miles right now. keep ya posted on how it goes. peace!

uMMMM!

so my foot is hurt since thursday after I got brave and started to jog the straights and walk the curves. I only did for that for three laps maybe four but not that long and not that hard, but my foot hurts and it's swollen and without my feet this weight is not going to come off, I am so afraid. so even though I worked a 16 hour shift since last night and i am going back to work tonight, I am still going to the track, when I am done i will go and get and x-ray just to make sure nothing is broken. so there, I am going to get it taken care of but I will not stop walking. determined, is what you can all me, tired of being "fat" is what I am. Peace, love & hair grease.

228.6 (-2lbs)

SO heres the deal i hurt my foot yesterday somehow. But i got up this morning happy to have feet and i went to the track and walked four miles with my buddy who was quite encouraging. Anyway after our walk we went to my doctor to weigh in and im two pounds down for a total of seven pounds n 28 miles for the week.

i did well this week, but not as well as I could have. I really appreciate everyone's very needed support.

next week goal 30 miles and 5 pounds. let's see if i can. it's gonna take a lot of hard work and steppin' up my game but trust i will do it. God will halp and I can do this. After all he sent me my guardian angel to assist me so it would be a waste of God's good grace if I didn't work hard and do the very best that I could.