GRRRRRRRR!!!!

OMG! I am so frustrated right now, I just want to scream. My husband can make me crazy but that's not why I am blogging right now, I already gave into one temptation today and I ate the darn snickers bar in the fridge I have been trying to avoid all day. and now all i really want to do is eat until my troubles go away, I know however, that my troubles won't go away by the time I finish eating my pantry out of food, but at least I would just feel so bad physically that i would go to sleep and I wouldn't have to think about it. I can't stop crying and all i really want to do is eat. but i can't ruin the progress i've already made i've got to find something else to do. Sometimes the emotional part of being "fat" is worse than the physical part. ok who am i kidding the emotional part of being "fat" is always the hardest for me. going to finish 30 miles by friday if it kills and today I feel like it just might, but i will do it, come hell or high water, nothing is gonna get in my way not even a stupid snickers bar two of them as a matter of fact but I won't touch them. just gonna go upstairs and go to bed. that's a safe idea and probably the safest idea I've had all day.